She hides behind the shadow of dark. The cuts. The blood. The pain. The tears. She shakes. She cries. She’s hurt. Lonely. Sad. The fear takes over. Scared. She needs you. She needs your words. Your voice. They calm her like a mothers touch calms a crying baby. She’s changed. She regrets the promise. Blue, Green, Red. Rose Petals. Kisses. Hugs. Smiles. Abstract paintings on bare walls. Butterflies. Knives. She’s lost.

I found a load of quotes today that apply to how I feel about you..

No matter how many times I get in my state where I need to push everyone away just remember I will always love you and don’t ever forget it even though you think I might.

I cared. Too much. I found out you could have cared less. You hurt me and you don’t even know it.

My favorite place would be in your arms falling asleep with you whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

I want you to buy me flowers, just because its tuesday.

t is not the kiss itself, but the moment right before the lips touch, that leaves you speechless.

Take time to think about those people you love, how you appreciate them, and thank them while you can.

You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am, and when I fall you offer me a softer place to land.

And when she kissed me that day I couldn't help but think this is exactly what I waited for.

For someone I love, I'd die a horrible death, battle the underworld, come back, and do it all again.

The spaces between our fingers were made so another persons fingers could fill them.

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

Never give up on the one you love because you never know when they’ll love you back.

I didn't say "I Love You" to hear it back... I said it to make sure you knew.

The only thing worse than a broken heart is knowing I'd give you another chance.

So just whisper sweet nothings in my ear and hold me tight. Make this night last forever, cause it may be the last.

There’s no way I could look in your eyes and tell you I don't love you.

You dont have to worry about me not loving you tomorrow.

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And what started this? I remembered that first kiss. And now Im crying my eyes out.

The World Spins Madly On..

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.

Pretty epic day :D

Met Connor who is actully rather epic. Seen Lauren ofc. Bought fuck all except a drink of diet pepsi and a book. I guess I did get a bit upset but eh. Cant have a perfect day. Hopefully will see Lauren before / after I go to my dads. Also hopefully we'll all go bowling maybe at the weekend. I wish Id took photos. I kept slipping over cuz the slabs on the ground are smooth and I decided to wear the boots with shit grip. I did feel like a spare part but tis totally understandable.
Im fucking bored now mind. And cold. Ive watched the IT Crowd all over the past 2 days. And Skins. Grr. Must watch something. *goes to search youtube*