Long time...things have taken a turn for the worse..Jacob is nowhere to be heard from, the things I spent 3 years working for are going down the shitter, and I have stepped on a broken video player..In a way I win. My self destruction is free to take over, and noones really here to stop me..but at the same time I lose. My friends, my happies. Gone. As quickly as it comes, its taken away. Ah well. Life goes on, I suppose. Ugh, I tried so hard to just get on, but something blocks me, I dont know why. Or what it is. Meh. Bday in 2 days. Noone will stop me then. For once, things are going to go my way.