I decided to make a list of stuff that may or not make me strange.

1. I hate unexpected loud noises. They scare me.
2. I run my fingers along the walls when I walk because it makes me feel safe.
3. I have my music on all the time so I cant be distracted by things other people are saying.
4. I like collecting springs and circuit boards.
5. I dont like people looking at me.
6. I dont talk if Im sad or angry and it makes it worse if people yell at me.
7. I have a lot of stuff in my head and I need to get the bad stuff out as soon as I can otherwise it all gets worse.
8. I blink to the rythum of whatever song I listen to.
9. I sit in corners when Im sad or angry because it makes me feel safe.
10. I like being with adilts more than kids because I feel safer. Lauren is an exception to this because she makes me feel safe too like when I have an urge or when she fixed my arm so it wouldnt go keloid and because she loves me more than anybody else does. Sarah loves me too but I think Lauren loves me more.
11. I draw trees a lot.
12. I listen to the same song over and over again to maintain my mood.
13. I dont like being touched unless I know about it beforehand like hugs or holding hands.
14. I dont like it when people touch my things.
15. I s/h.
16. I still get urges to s/h but very very bad ones.
17. I get urges to do stupid things like trash my room, and worse.
18. I refuse to eat anything thats out of date, even if it sonly by one day.
19. I hate making eye contact.
20. I hate when people tell me to calm down when Im already calm because then I get not calm.
21. I have to turn plug sockets off it theres nothing plugged into them.
22. Once I get myself into a routine I like to stick to it.
23. I dont like when things change. Like school day plans or when things just stop happening.
24. I dont like being left alone. It scares me.
25. I keep things that people have given me if those people are special like the pen Jackie gave me 2 years ago and the chocolate box from Sarah and the truffle box from Lauren.
26. I keep bowling printouts. When I play bowling I must get a printout at the end of the game.
27. I talk to myself.
28. I pretend people are there when theyre not and I talk to them. Its like in a dream but Im awake and I sort of act it out.
29. I draw lots of swirly patterns like trees.
30. I hate the idea of sex.
31. I like being talked to. Dont look at me like Im crazy, just talk to me and be nice to me.
32. If Im already miserable dont yell at me. Wait until Im not feeling crap because I dont know what will happen if its made worse.
33. When I find myself in an uncomfortable situation I will stop talking and stare at something or I will run away.
34. I stare all the time and dont know Im doing it. I only know if people tell me or ask me what Im looking at.
35. I go out in cold weather in shorts and T Shirt.
36. I dont like being grabbed from behind and pulled. It scares me.
37. I dont like sudden movements.
38. I dont like it when people walk really close behind me.
39. I copy peoples writing if I decide its pretty.
40. I often try to write left handed.
41. I collect bottles like Miniature Whisky bottles and Vodka bottles and such.
42. I like letters. If someone writes me a letter I keep it in a special place because its special.
43. Sometimes I dont know how to say no to people. Like when I really dont want Scott to come round but I end up letting him anyway.
44. I bike up hills just to free wheel down them standing up on the pedals not holding on in the middle of the night when its cold.
45. I remember strange facts about people. And car registration plates.
46. I can play music in my head but only if Im alone.
47. I hate wearing shoes.
48. I get strange urges to kill myself.
49. Sometimes I like to sleep in my closet.
50. The thought of growing up living alone scares me because if theres nobody there who will I talk to when I get scared and who will I fight s/h with and who will take care of me and who will I get to take care of?