I seriously dont get this shit. Lifes a bitch, I know, but that doesnt make it any easier, does it?
Seriously. If I had someone who wanted to see me every day, who wanted to go out to their way and abandon everything just to see me for even a minute, Id fucking let them if it would make them happy. Sure, maybe Im overreacting a little bit but its the fucking principle of it.
I know I cant be happy ALL the time, that just not fair on other people who need happies. But just for a fucking minute a day, is it too much to ask?
I cant be bothered to argue with people, to eat, to do anything. Whats the fucking point? Yes Lazy, I know about the life being a game thing, but I dont like the game anymore. I dont think I ever did. I just want someone to take me away from this world, so I dont have to. That, or make it as horrible as possible, then I at least have more reason to hate it. I want someone to hurt me. I dont know why. I wish brian was still beating the shit out of me. Someone. Anyone. I dont care anymore. I look at myself and wonder why the heck anyone would want anything to do with me. It made sense before when I was being hit a lot, and it doesnt make sense why noone hits me now. Im the same person. It surprises me that he doesnt hit me more to be honest.
Eh. Now Ive gone mad.