Hmm

Ok. So I get it now, I think. I have to get better, I know this, for my sake and Laurens. I get what Im doing wrong. I just have to learn how to stop doing it all. Lauren says shell give me a chance, but I really dont know if I can trust her now. I want to be able to trust her but I just cant tell if shes still lying to me. I wouldnt blame her to be fair, but Id rather know the truth straight off than piss about thinking everythings fine when its not. Its all very well her telling me shes being honest, but anyone can lie. Idk. Tis easier for me to believe the negative things right now, they are the bits that are easier to believe, but I dont want to believe them anymore. I want to be a shiney happy person who people feel comfortable with and who people enjoy being around. And I want to be the kind of girlfriend Lauren deserves.
I think Im over thinking. Same things, phrases going round in my head. All I keep thinking now is "Tis all very well deleting it all, but whats to say you wont make another one and keep lying, keep more stuff from me?" Ugh.
I cannot think of anything to do. Im actually bored of watching Skins all day. Ah. Lee Evans XL Tour will do fine :)
I hate this lemon - lime shit im drinking. I couldnt stand the aftertaste of the fizziness so I put water in and now its a horrible exaggeratingly watered down version of something that is supposed to be sour. BORN to be sour, dare I say. Yet I cant stop drinking it. THERES NO MORE MILK! D:
My brother is BAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!!!! Lazeh appears to have something good going :)
Sleep now.