i hate this
hate hate hate it. i dont want to do weed. i fucking wish id never told Lauren about Nusaybah having a fuckin spliff. i fucked up everything and now im gonna lose her. i want her to stop. and she said shed do anything for me. and id do anything for her. thats why i go along with it because she wants to but MMMF idk what i want anymore
strange urge in head telling me to kill self and i dont like it