ohmygod. today was weird. i went on a trip with my leisure and tourism class. to nottingham. to see the galleries of juscite and the city of caves. the caves were crappy and i was bored and i went a bit funny and wouldnt go anywhere, but the LSA who was with me (cos i needed to be under supervision - one trip i went AWOL) told me she'd come on the trip with me cos she wanted to spend the day with me as opposed to being school teaching.and i asked why and she said cos she likes me. which made me cry. so i went and rejoined the group and she said thank you, and that she was glad i was here. and that made me cry too. and she kept asking what was making me sad but i couldnt tell her there. when we finished in the caves, i sat on the floor cos i didnt want to sit next to anyone. when we went to go, she held out her hand and she helped me up. i thought about what she said and cried a bit more. she told me that i didnt have to tell her why i was sad if i didnt want to. we were nearly at the bus and by this time i was crying a fair wee bit. so she took me aside and i tried to talk. i told her 'There aren't many people like you.' and i was crying so much she couldnt hear and i had to say it again. and she said it was such a sweet thing to say and she hugged me and i hugged back. but it wasnt just a quick hug, she didnt let go. and i still cried and she held me and she didnt seem to mind that i was crying. and we got in the minibus and i just stopped crying. and i wrote her a note saying why i cried. cos noone wants to spend a day with me and noone says theyre glad im there. and she told me shes not a liar and she means what she says. and she gave me a high five. we had to see if we had to sign in back at school and she came with us to make sure we didnt just leg it. when she had to go i said 'thank you for coming with me'.
It Is These People I Love The Most