ohmygod. my brother is amazing. he understands so much...doesnt mind helping or talking to me...how did i get so lucky to have him? i dunno. im glad i do have him though.
he knows psychology ( i have no idea if i spelt that right ) and he talked to me about my 'family' and why i forget to tell my mum things, but i remember to tell my friends the same sort of things. like, with my 'mum' i dont remember the 'important things', cos theyre not important to me, but with my friends i remember the things that dont seem to mean so much to others. and i remember my friends birthdays and i get their cards and prezzies in advance, but i totally forget that its my 'mum's birthday tomorrow... he says it sounds like a passive agressive attack on my 'mum'. which makes sense. we think i stopped liking her when she got her boyfriend. i think i feel left out, like she loves him and my 'sister' more that me. so i dont love her. or any of them. they never pay me any attention cos my 'sister' gets it all so i make trouble to get attention. well. i did. i cant be bothered now. i dont want them anyway. i live in the internet now. and my mp3 player. i love my internet family and friends more that my 'real family'. and i love my RL friends even more.
god, this was a long post... but see, through ranting to myself i realise why i hate my 'mum'. madness helps. *commence idiot-grinning, dancing and so forth...*