ahh Lauren raped me lol
we made brownie :D
ehhh
idk
do i? no
hm
i think i is an emotional wreck and it scares me because sometimes i dont feel like crying but then i just randomly start crying and i hate it cuz i dont really have a reason. cuz ive cried like 3 times already and its for like, little things. and idk why.
and for some reason if i get pissed off i just wont talk. but then i feel bad if i dont talk to Lauren but then i talk in sign language but she cant understand sign language so i have to talk and sometimes i just want to shut up and meh.
i dont want to want to stop talking. but sometimes i jsut have to concentrate on shutting up otherwise i might start concentrating on shit things.
i love Lauren
i want to make her happy. i dont know how to.
life sure is a bitch. lol here i come droppin plates on your ass bitch

ok so we are fucked again slightly because of my mothers stupidness and my inactive brain
i am technically in an unoficial relationship (that confuses even me and im the one writing the thing)
i am cold
this hair dye sucks
tomorrow is friday
sleep at Laurens
omfg
i want brandy (hahaha swallowing brandy tastes like swallowing jizz)
i want to play guitar but i cant lol
omg i think i went mad
look how much wasted space i could have just put it all on one line like this and kept on going like this without pressing enter or i could save even more space and type withoutusingthespacebarattheendofeachword
LOL ohmygod someone help me i think im happy again WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ^^
i wonder ig this sentence will make sense if i type iw withour looking at the ketbpars
lol no it doesnt
well actully someone could probably work out what it says but not everything is spelt right lol
do i care? i think not
omg
xD
radadadaaaaaaaaa

Idk why I feel so crappy. I hate not knowing. I hate thinking what if.

Love is the most unexplainable emotion around. There is no real definition for it. Everyones experiences are different.
I think when you care so much about someone, youd go to hell and back for them, kill, torture or die for them, thats love. When you actually know youd die without them and cant imagine life without them, youre in love.
When Im with you, and you have that smile on your face, and your eyes light up, and I realise this is what I wanted all along, this is what Id do anything to hold onto, I know Im in love.


"Love doesn't make the world go round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile."

I want someone to say yes
-or-
I want to be the one to say yes.
I want someone to follow wherever I go.
I want someone to know when I need cheering up.
I want something thats forever, no strings attached.

Good stuff.
Lauren is coming over tomorrow.
20 days.
I painted stuff.
I am currently speaking to Lauren.

Bad stuff.
mums being a bitch again.
Massive all-day-long urge.
I want cake and there is no cake.
I am single. I think.
I am cold.
I am lonely.
I want to write a poem but I cant fucken think.

Let this prove that there are more bad things than good therefore providing reason for my current meh-ness.

I want to be someones favourite
I want to be someones "the one"
I want someone to drop everything and come see me when Im sad
I want someone to want to call or come round to see me everyday just to ask how Im doing
I want someone to open up an IM conversation as soon as they see Im online.
I want someone to love me most
I want someone to be able to make me laugh so hard I cry
I want someone to miss me when I go
I want someone to grin like an idiot when I come back
I want someone I love to love me too.